Kons court day

Today is my 19 yr old sons 1st court appearance on his arrest for intent to sell marijuana, a felony  he also was charged with a misdemeanor having Xanax without a prescription.  Though this is not his 1st brush with the law, it is his first as an adult.  So instead of standing by his side in front of the judge, I will sit with the rest of the people. As a mother it is heartbreaking to have a son go down the wrong road. He has made many foolish choices in his 19 years and I constantly worry about him.  He is already anticipating going to jail and in fact prefers jail over probation so he can continue to smoke pot. Which blows my mind. He will sign up for a public defender because we can't afford an attorney.   I am working part time only and we are barely making ends meet. My brother is also going to court today on his numerous charges. So my brother and my son both in court on the same day. My son is very much like my brother and that really concerns me because my brother has spent half his life behind bars. I pray that my son doesn't follow that same path and this is his first and last bad choice but odds are it isn't.